Hello (From Here)

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A heartfelt, witty, and thought-provoking YA love story about two teens who fall for each other while forced apart during quarantine, written by two New York Times bestselling authors, and for fans of Five Feet Apart, Anna and the French Kiss, and My Life Next Door

Maxine and Jonah meet in the canned goods aisle just as California is going into lockdown. Max’s part-time job as a personal grocery shopper is about to transform into a hellish gauntlet. Jonah’s preexisting anxiety is about to become an epic daily struggle. As Max and Jonah get to know each other through FaceTime dates, socially distanced playground hangs, and the escalating heartbreaks of the pandemic, they’re pushed apart by what they don’t share and pulled closer by what they do.

As thoughtful, probing, and informed as it is buoyant, romantic, and funny, Hello (From Here) cuts across differences in class, privilege, and mental health, all thrown into stark relief by the COVID-19 pandemic. Here’s a novel that looks at the first two months of the quarantine, and adds falling in love to the mess.

“Hello (From Here) isn’t just a book about the pandemic.” —PopSugar
“It’s also a funny, poignant romcom about the unpredictability of love in chaotic times. . . . Excellent.” —BCCB
* “Satisfyingly banter-filled.” —PW, starred review
“Sweet . . . Effectively rendered.” —Kirkus
“Realistic.” —SLJ
“Not your typical romantic comedy, [it’s] a timely update of the genre.” —Booklist
“Witty, entertaining . . . endearing and relatable.” —Common Sense Media
“An unputdownable story that YA readers will adore.” —Brightly
“Funny, romantic, and eerily familiar.” —author Kelly Loy Gilbert
“Witty, hilarious, heart-filled, and romantic.” —author Jeff Zentner
“In a category of its own. . . . Wonderful.” —Postmedia”Much more than just a pandemic story, it’s also a funny, poignant romcom about the unpredictability of love in chaotic times. The romantic leads are enjoyably complex, with authentic, relatable strengths and weaknesses, and their different backgrounds offer a window into how class impacts one’s ability to cope. . . . Ultimately hopeful while acknowledging the unknowability of the future, it’s an excellent option for romcom readers who want a realistic romantic romp for our times.” —BCCB

“Loss, love, and unusual circumstances combine into an unputdownable story that YA readers will adore.” —Brightly

★ “A satisfyingly banter-filled rom-com told in alternating voices . . . Max and Jonah’s struggles with romance, their families, and their individually complicated circumstances make for a timely story that offers a creative take on how hope and romance can persist in difficult times.” —Publisher’s Weekly, starred review

“Hello (From Here) isn’t just a book about the pandemic. [It’s] a sweet love story between two teens [whose] relationship blossoms even as mental health issues, the toll of the pandemic, and social distancing threatens to keep them apart.” —PopSugar

“Engaging . . . Unusually strong . . . Not your typical romantic comedy, Baker and King’s collaborative novel offers a timely update of the genre.” —Booklist

“A realistic teen romance that touches on important issues.” —SLJ

“Sweet . . . Effectively rendered.” —Kirkus

“Highlights [much more than] the uncertainty of living through the pandemic . . . Witty, entertaining . . . endearing and relatable.” —Common Sense Media

“Alternately funny, romantic, and eerily familiar, Hello (From Here) is a story about how life goes on when the world stops around you.” —Kelly Loy Gilbert,award–winning author of Picture Us in the Light

“Years from now, when asked what lifeduring COVID was like, I’ll recommend Hello (From Here), because of what a witty, hilarious, heart-filled, and romantic reminder it is that love and light can emerge from the most trying times.” —Jeff Zentner, Morris Award–winning author of The Serpent King

“Written with a light touch and deft humour, [the] entire book is in a category of its own. . . . COVID is just one of several issues the book’s characters grapple with. . . . A wonderful, cohesive story of two unlikely characters coming together at a time when people are mostly staying apart.” —Postmedia
Chandler Baker is the author of five young adult novels, including This is Not the End. Her adult debut, Whisper Network, was a New York Times bestseller and Reese Witherspoon Book Club pick, and her follow-up, The Husbands, is slated for summer ’21. Chandler lives in Austin, Texas with her husband and two young children. She can usually be found listening to audiobooks at two times the normal speed, overspending at bookstores, or obsessing over true crime.

Wesley King is the #1 New York Times bestselling author of eleven novels, including the Wizenard series with Kobe Bryant, the Edgar Award-winning and Bank Street Best Book of the Year OCDaniel, and the Junior Library Guild selections The Vindico and The Feros. He lives in Nova Scotia, as well as on a 1967 boat that he’s sailing around the world.

chapter one

Max

Conventional wisdom suggests that, when the world finally does begin to fall apart, love will be the only thing left that really matters. Petty grievances will fall away. You won’t remember who called you Maxi Pad for the entirety of sixth grade (Logan Bennett) or how much money is in your bank account or the hours spent studying for that one calculus exam you almost failed. Instead, you will spend time with loved ones. Hold them close. Be present. Let them know that you care. And so, I guess, that’s more or less how I came to be price-­comparing boxes of condoms for my seventy-­seven-­year-­old customer, Mrs. Phillips, at the start of a global pandemic.

This is what it’s come down to. Me, standing in the Family Planning aisle of the grocery store debating the merits of flavored versus colored versus ribbed varieties—­trust me, I am so not qualified for this—­and guarding my grocery cart like a lion over its kill. I first took an afterschool job as a personal grocery shopper eight months ago and never have I seen Vons like this. It’s only been a couple hours since Governor Newsom announced a shelter-­in-­place order effective tonight, but already the checkout lines stretch past the soda aisle, and if you want hand sanitizer that badly, you might not want to get too attached to your kidneys.

The canned beans shelves—­wiped. Frozen pizzas—­wiped. Cleaning products—­wiped, wiped, wiped. It’s as if there’s a hurricane, a wildfire, and a blizzard all hitting at once and the entire county has decided to doomsday prep.

I run through the lists of today’s clients, circling the items I still need. Listen, I’m not here to judge anyone’s life choices, but, Mr. Culver, are three different types of soft cheeses and organic pomegranate seeds, like, really priorities right now? I make my best guess for Mrs. Phillips, which is all I can do, given the woman still doesn’t know how to text, and make my way through the maze of shoppers who are demonstrating the whole spectrum of concern levels. I weave around a woman sporting those rubber yellow gloves meant for washing dishes and a dad in shorts and flip-­flops licking his thumb and wiping food from his toddler’s mouth all in one aisle. When I can’t get through a traffic jam in front of the garbage bags, I take the long way through cosmetics toward the back of the store.

“Miss!” someone calls out from somewhere between canned goods and chips, and I’m 99 percent sure that he’s not talking to me because I have a messy bun and a hole in the armpit of my favorite T-­shirt andMiss is some country club shit. “Uh, miss. Hello, I’m talking to you. Excuse me. You can’t do that.” A boy taps me on the shoulder and when I turn around, I see that we are the exact same height, looking eye to light blue eye, a detail that I only notice because, first of all, I’m not oblivious, and, second of all, he is all up in my business.

“Excuse you,” I say, but with attitude, and while trying not to notice the passersby staring me down like I’m trying to shoplift an entire case of frozen pizzas. “Socialdistancing.” I shoo him back.

He hooks his palm around the back of his neck and stares down the Salty Snacks aisle. “Oh, um, sorry, but you’re not supposed to hoard . . . toilet paper.”

“I’m not.” I lean my elbow on the cart handle, mentally tap-­tap-­tapping as a frantic shelf-­stocker in a black apron and an “Ask Me about Super Savings” button rushes between us.

I know you’re not supposed to judge a book by its cover, but I’m sorry. I have this guy pegged. My age, floppy red-­brown hair, nice teeth, those techie catalog glasses, and real collared-­shirt energy—­so much that it’s likehi, yes, you’re obviously from around here and own at least one leather item that’s been monogrammed.

“Actually, you’ve got six packages.” He says it like it pains him a little to be the one to point this out. And yeah, I made sure to score a load from Lou in Inventory as soon as I arrived because I read the news. “The shelves are empty,” he says, “and it’s just—­well—­you’re only supposed to take what you really need. So that there’s enough to go around.”

I eye his basket: a wheel of brie, Clorox wipes, and two bottles of sparkling water.

“So that’s what you really need?” I reach up and pull my bun tighter. “Not that I need to explain myself to you, but this is my job.” Like it painsme a little to be the one to point this out. “I deliver groceries.”

His mouth forms an O as he drags his fingers through his nice haircut. A bright shade of pink swallows up the freckles on the tops of his cheeks and I almost feel bad because, well, the absolute truth is that he’s kind of adorable, if you’re into that sort of thing. “I—­wow—­okay,” he says. “I’m sorry.” He coughs, which is so not the thing to do right now. Everyone within earshot looks at him like he’s Patient Zero in the zombie apocalypse. “I’m—­can we just, like, start over? I’m Jonah and I’m really kind of desperate here.”

“I’m Max and that’s really not my problem.”

“Look.” He shakes it off. “I can pay you for the toilet paper.” He reaches into his back pocket and pulls out a (monogrammed!) leather wallet, fishing a handful of bills from it. “How’s forty dollars sound?”

He holds it out and I stare down my nose, not wanting to admit to this boy who has at least a hundred just sitting there that, to me, forty bucks sounds really, really good. “I don’t want your dirty money,” I say, with more conviction than I feel.

He frowns. “I’m not, like, in the Mafia. I got it in a birthday card from my grandma.”

“I mean germs. Cash is covered in them.”

“Oh. Right. Those.” He nods once, returning the money to his wallet. He rocks back on his heels before jumping out of the way of an oncoming cart with a squeaky wheel. “Okay then. Well, I’m sure we can negotiate a deal.”

“Oh, so you’re a lawyer?”

“My dad actually. M and A. That stands for mergers and acquisitions.”

“I know what M and A stands for.” I don’t. “So what do you propose?”

He looks down at his basket and I see that he bites his nails. So do I. “Trade sparkling water for toilet paper.”

I tilt my head, all you’ve got to be kidding me.

“Oh, come on,” he protests. “Someone on your list definitely ordered sparkling water if they’re from Fountain Valley, and I got the last two bottles.” He holds one up and shakes it as enticement. “Oops, probably shouldn’t do that,” he says.

“No deal.”

“Okay, okay.” He holds up a finger. “You drive a hard bargain. I’ll throw in the brie too.”

I begin walking away with my cart. No thank you.

“Fine,” he calls after me. “Fine and the Clorox wipes.” I stop. Wait. This just got interesting. “Look,” he says once he has my attention. “We can make it official and everything.” He has his palm up like a stop sign, likehear me out. “I, Jonah Stephens”—­hand on his heart now—­is he for real?—­“in exchange for toilet paper and . . . other good and valuable consideration, yadda, yadda, yadda . . . do hereby agree to transfer all of my . . . assets in this here grocery basket to you—­what was your name again?”

I roll my eyes. “Max.”

“Max.” He grins, pleased with himself. “This agreement constitutes the entire agreement with respect to the matters set forth herein and may not be amended without the mutual consent of the parties hereto. How’s that?”

I sigh. “Think I can get that in writing?”

“Actually, that’s a common misconception. Verbal contracts arejust as binding.”

“Learn something new every day.” I make my eyes wide and innocent. “Okay then. You’ve got yourself a deal.”

“Really? Awesome. That’s great! I would shake your hand, but—­” He gestures at the madness going on all around us in the store and instead unloads the brie and sparkling water into my cart. He’d been right. They’d been on my list.

Slowly, I take a pack of toilet paper and use the only nail whose life my teeth have miraculously spared to rip into the plastic, selecting a single roll. “Catch,” I say, and throw it over to him.

“What’s this?” He squeezes the roll.

“Toilet paper.” Obviously.

“Yeah, but I—­”

“You didn’t say how much.” I pause a beat for him to catch up. “The contract simply stated that I owed you toilet paper. Period. Frankly, I think I’m being generous. It’s a double roll.”

“Okay, but I clearly meant—­I mean—­this—­”

“Sorry.” I shrug. “Verbal contracts are binding, I hear.”

I turn as I’m walking away with my loot. He’s standing on his tiptoes. “Come on. It’s not like you can give someone an opened package!”

“That was from my stash,” I yell from the end of the aisle. “Pleasure doing business with you.” I salute. Shopping lists complete.

 

chapter two

Jonah

“I’m still confused as to why you have a single roll of toilet paper.”

Olivia stares at my pitiable offering, tapping her fingernail on the Carrara countertop like a small but suitably disdainful gavel. Her expression reads, as always:What the hell is wrong with you? It should be ironic, since she’s wearing an aquamarine bathrobe she hasn’t removed in at least three days—­it looks . . . hard—­and she has her chestnut hair in slowly unraveling space buns. But my older sister can look judicial, and by that I mean deeply condescending, even without regular hygiene.

“Well, it turned out we didn’t really specify,” I manage weakly.

I’m still trying to remember how that happened. We were negotiating and it seemed to be fairly equitable . . . and then I was looking at her big green eyes and the way the right corner of her lip moved when she smiled and then I had no toilet paper and yeah it all makes sense.

“Do you know what an Unconscionable Contract is?” Olivia asks.

“I can speculate,” I mutter. “It’s not a big deal. I got another brie—­”

“Not a big deal! Do you know how many times a day I poop, Jonah? Don’t give me that face. This is not embarrassing. My intestines are like an active volcano.” Olivia has been away for the last year at UCLA, but the pandemic forced her home even before the shutdown. Olivia has Crohn’s disease, which, for her, is basically a constant inflammation in her bowels, and it puts her at greater risk. The occasional brie is one of the few fatty foods she’ll allow herself. That and Chips Ahoy! chewy chocolate chip cookies, but only when under duress. “I’m going to have to origami my toilet paper for who knows how long. Death by a thousand tiny wipes.”

“I bought you some moist towelettes at the gas station,” I proffer, then sigh. “They only had one pack, though. And it’s travel-size.”

She takes a deep breath and examines me. Her eyes are sharp and small and hazel like our mom’s had been . . . minus the warmth. “It all just seems a little . . . odd for you,” she says finally, picking at her teeth.

“The embarrassing handling of a negotiation—­”

“No,” she corrects, analyzing some residual broccolini. We had that for dinner two days ago. “That’s standard fare. I meant the actual gumption to negotiate with a stranger. You screamed ‘Stranger Danger’ every time someone walked by us in a parking lot until you were twelve. You’re neurotic.”

A diagnosed neurotic, in fact. First came the GAD: generalized anxiety disorder. That one sucks, but it’s the panic disorder that truly kicks my ass. I earned that label in eighth grade following my first public panic attack. They kept going from there, chipping away little pieces of me. And they led, of course, to the big one.

“I wanted toilet paper—­” I murmur.

“Jonah.”

“Okay, I wanted to keep talking to her,” I admit. “I . . . well . . . I think we had a moment.”

It was the loose strands of hair falling around her cheeks. It was the way she spoke . . . the confidence and the easy lopsided smile and the way her eyebrows arched and fell in a second conversation that was surprisingly easy to decipher:vaguely amused, this boy is an idiot, vaguely amused, this boy is an idiot . . . 

And yeah, they never indicated: Oh, he’s cute. Or: I wish he would ask for my number. God, I wish I’d asked for her number. A last name. A chance. All I have isMax.

Olivia is rubbing the bridge of her nose. “I hate when you slip into reverie.Jonah.”

“Sorry,” I mutter. “I just can’t help but think she was the one. Except less melodramatic. But also possibly not, because I keep picturing her turning around and I think I can hear music.”

“It’s a pandemic, dickwad. Not the start of Twilight. I am immunocompromised.”

Olivia overenunciates this like I’ve never heard the word. Like Kate hasn’t already said it to me four hundred times this week, as if we are protecting the last Siberian tiger. It wasn’t exactly helping my stress levels in the grocery store. Kate sent me in because she was on a work call, and she told me to be careful and not to touch anything but, like, that’s what shoppingis.

“I know,” I say.

“And you’re not exactly a pillar of stability—­” she starts.

“I know.”

Olivia gives one last gavel tap, takes her glasses off, and begins cleaning them with her disturbingly brittle robe. I await my sentence.

“You’re a dipshit,” she pronounces.

“Thank you.”

“This is a horrible idea. Forget about her. Join me in my super bubble and wait out the apocalypse in isolated, heart-­numbing misery like an intelligent young man.”

I wave her on impatiently.

“Fine,” she says. “You want to see her again. I need toilet paper. I think we can solve both our problems in one fell swoop. You said she worked as a personal shopper. So, we simply find out which company she works for, procure an order from said Max, and voilà. I can wipe my ass, and you can make one of yourself.”

I frown. “This sounds a little . . . stalker-­y.”

“I prefer sleuthing, but call it what you will.”

“Don’t you think she’s going to figure out the incredibly unlikely coincidence?”

Olivia pauses. “Possibly. But I want toilet paper. Do you want to see her or not?”

“Well . . . yeah . . .”

She starts down the hallway, her aquamarine bathrobe fluttering out behind her like a cape. “Follow me.”

“Where are we going?”

“To do some sleuthing, my dear Watson. Watch and learn.”

 

Thank you for shopping with Shop4U. I’ve begun your order and will be sending through messages on preference, changes, and substitutions.

Maxine M.: How ripe do you like your avocados? They have a decent selection.

I stare at the message, beaming . . . and concerned. This is kind of creepy. Okay. Very creepy. Olivia is disturbingly good at stalking people. The actual Vons shopping service didn’t turn up anything, so she then googled all the third-­party services offered in the area and checked their Instagram pages for followers named Max, or as I described her, the prettiest girl I’ve ever met, which was probably not helpful.

Sure enough, she found a Max Mauro following a local company called Shop4U, and even though Max’s profile was private, that tiny little smiling circle was more than enough for me to shout: “Holy shit, you are an evil genius!”

But she wasn’t done. Olivia downloaded the Shop4U app, ordered and canceled until MAXINE M. popped up, and then strutted out of my room, spouting some sort of Victorian adage and a few additions to my otherwise well-­curated shopping list.

Now I have a message.

And more importantly, a chance to redeem myself.

Max doesn’t know it’s me yet, since we had to use Dad’s AMEX and have his first name on the profile, but she will certainly figure it out when she gets here and sees me doing . . . Push-­ups? ReadingAnna Karenina? Somehow pretending my sister didn’t just stalk her and Oh hi Max I was just pruning these marigolds look at me I’m all aflutter! Oh god.

I look at the blinking cursor on my phone.

Okay, let’s review. Don’t use the word merger ever again. Don’t banter about toilet paper.Definitely don’t admit your sister just tracked her down . . . I chew my nail feverishly, trying to think.

I always suck at this, but I suck even more lately because my last relationship endednot well in a very public, humiliating setting involving a preposterously muscular ass. Moving on.

I try to focus. Okay. Just say the first clever thing that comes into your head.

Customer: The softer the better! I am making a guacamole, or ahuacamolli, which was loosely the Aztec word for “avocado soup.”

Okay, it’s pretentious. And I admit I googled avocado fun facts. But it was either that or how they have more potassium than a banana, which is good to know, but . . . 

I stare at my phone. No response. The seconds tick by.

Shit. I should have gone with the potassium—­

Maxine M.: I will keep that in mind for my next hipster Instagram post. Ahuacamolli toast.

All the pent-­up air in my lungs whooshes out again. My stomach is no longer a churning mass of regret and day-­old brie rinds—­Kate ate most of the actual cheese. She really is evil.

Kate is my stepmother, by the way, and an estate planning attorney. I call her the Wicked Witch of the Wills. Or, I would, if I weren’t deathly afraid of her. She takes Muay Thai three times a week and apparently her instructor told her to “ease up” because she broke some dude’s nose.

Usually I can rely on my dad to temper the evil, but he’s in Madrid for some major corporate acquisition or something . . . and hopefully catching a plane back soon. Really soon.

The one-­two punch of Kate and Olivia is draining my soul.

I flop onto my bed and message Max back. The fact that she would reply like that to an anonymous customer just reaffirms what I already suspected: Max Mauro is kind of a badass.

Customer: Exactly. “Just living my best life with my ahuacamolli.”

Maxine M.: Educational flex. And yes, I got the waxing strips.

I sigh inwardly. The order had been well-­curated until Olivia got her hairy mitts on it.

Customer: Those are for my sister.

Maxine M.: Don’t ask, don’t tell. I should go. Your order will arrive soon.

I put down the phone, grinning. I don’t support Olivia’s tactics . . . but Max is coming! And also holy shitballs, Max is coming like . . . soon. Now what? I want to run out and talk to her in person, but the app saidvery clearly that all deliveries were now to be left outside the door with a notification, and that it was better for everyone if clients stayed inside their homes and only retrieved the groceries after the driver had left.

But how am I going to say hi from inside? I turn to the window, pondering.

Oh. That could work.

I pace around my bedroom, through its lounge area and the attached bathroom and back around again. And again. And again. It smells like mint and gardenia . . . Kate filled our entire house with potters, so I basically live in a conservatory.

My bedroom also doubles as a shrine to all things cinema: a continuous loop of classics on my TV, alphabetized stacks of Blu-­rays because I’m a traditionalist, walls plastered with posters of my favorites:Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid; The Good, the Bad and the Ugly;Greed and Glory . . . basically a bunch of cowboys deadpanning me while I have anxiety attacks. I’m a massive Westerns fan, which is ironic, because I’m terrified of horses. I got bit once on a field trip. Long story. Actually, the horse just bit me on the shoulder for no reason.

Many of the posters have tears and crinkles. These are the movies I watched with Mom, and I tore them all down in the weeks after everything in a hail of hardened Sticky Tack and peeling greige paint. They went into the bottom of my closet with the photos and keepsakes and that amazing Death Star stress ball she bought me that brought back painful memories with every futile squeeze.

But I slowly put them back, over the last year or so. Baby steps, maybe, like the ones Dr. Syme is always talking about. That, or I’m just a masochist who craves grizzled disdain.

I sit down at my desk, trying to distract myself with some always productive YouTube rabbit-­holing, but my eyes go instead to the navy blue folder sitting beside my laptop: the official welcome package toEsprit Brillants.

It’s been displayed there for months like a nerdy trophy. I won the uber-­competitive competition for the summer semester abroad in Paris, which made sense, since I prepped for that interview for a solid year. Ineeded to win.

Esprit Brillants was supposed to be the turning point. Now the sight of the folder makes my stomach roil. What if things don’t clear up? What if I can’t travel? What if thingsnever go back to normal? The thoughts wrap their invisible fingers around my throat.

I check my phone again.

It’s been twenty-­four minutes since I got the last notification: Shopping complete. I’m getting a little too antsy and I know it. I inhale slowly. Deep in. Hold. Deep out. The little nagging questions try a more urgent angle of attack: Does my breathing feel different today? Did I already catch the coronavirus? What if I give it to Olivia? What if she dies and it’s my fault again and—­

I hear a bass rumble from the street and run to the window just as a car pulls up to the curb.Car might be a stretch, since that thing is rapidly devolving back into steel and rubber. The bright red beater looks very out of place against our pristine front yard and sculpted hedges, matching white Benzes in the driveway, and a truly repulsive cherub fountain that Kate picked out last year to spit recycled love and water to some gigantic Koi fish at the base.

The muffler spews smoke and sparks(?!) as it comes to a stop. Is that legal?

The door swings open, and Max Mauro walks around the hood, hair the color of chocolate tied back in a messy bun. A few loose strands blow over her face. White tank top and one-­strap-­on overalls. She’s freaking singing. I press my face against the windowpane.

She comes to the porch, and I belatedly notice she has AirPods in. I pat my hair down—­needlessly, since it sits flat by default—­and knock on the window. She keeps walking.The AirPods . . . she can’t hear anything. I knock again, louder this time, but Max disappears below my line of sight. My plans. My message. My chance at redemption—­they’re all strolling away with her. I open the window, lean out, and shout at the top of my lungs:

“Max! Max! It’s me! Ahuacamolli!”

I see a surprised old man with a Yorkie jump on the sidewalk, squint, and look up at me. Mr. Finney. He hates joy. Max seems to notice the scowling Mr. Finney and turns back to me as well. We meet eyes. I don’t know what the hell to say. My brain is broken. I just . . . stare. I think my mouth moves, but nothing comes out. Speak! Please! Something!

Max smiles, waves, and then gets into her ramshackle old Civic and drives away, sending up a trail of smoke and fading sparks. I watch her go, sighing and retreating inside.

On the window is my sign, carefully written on the glass with a blue permanent marker:

HELLO (FROM HERE)

 

chapter three

Max

“Did you wash your hands?” my mom asks by way of greeting. She has her cell phone to her ear and is pacing in the kitchen of our second-­floor apartment. On a normal day, the drive from Fountain Valley back to Huntington Beach is twenty minutes, but today, it took exactly one hundred and fifty-­two thousand times that. It’s like all of California simultaneously thought,But this might be my last chance to eat In-­N-­Out Burger and hightailed it to the freeway. Like,You know what might be fun? To give purgatory a test-­drive.

“I literally just walked in the door, Mom.”

“Shhhh!” She draws pinched fingers across her lips. A beat. Then—­“Sing two happy birthdays while you scrub. Don’t stop.” She gives me The Look.

“You’re talking to me now?” I run the faucet and pump soap into my palm.

“Uh-­huh. Yessir. I can arrange for them to be available—­I can’t hear you.” Mom snaps her fingers and points at the faucet. She’s back on me apparently.

It’s amazing. My mother can be having two legit conversations at once and it’s up to me to know when it’s my turn. She calls it her Single Mom Superpower. She has lots of them—­like finding the best thrift store furniture and tuning out any questions with the word dad or father in them.

“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you . . .” I have a bad singing voice. The kind that would get me singled out as a national laughingstock if I ever auditioned for a reality TV singing competition. I glance at my mom. We both have the kind of pasty white skin that doesn’t tan, just burns. Her long dark brown hair—­same as mine—­is pulled up into a ponytail. She’s still wearing her Mauro’s Dry Cleaning polo withRae embroidered above the logo—­a clothes hanger bent into the shape of a crown. Barefoot, the hem of her old Dickie’s tucks underneath her heels.

“Did you take off your shoes?” My mother sets her phone down on the peeling laminate countertop and ticks through the mail pile.

We’ve been in this apartment through four consecutive lease renewals, the longest I’ve lived anywhere, and even though it’s not the nicest place we’ve called home, I like that we’ve hung around long enough to paint the walls a buttery yellow and for it to smell like my mother when I walk through the door.

We share a bathroom, our toothbrushes side by side in the medicine cabinet next to the sink, and I swear the fact that not all of our apartments have come with washer-­dryer hookups is the main reason why Mom started a dry-­cleaning business.

I try not to think of that kid Jonah’s house, of the massive lawn, of the scaling walls, of the working fountain in the front, because it seems wild that he lives there and I live here and we both call these places “home” like they belong in the same category. For the record, I’m not in the habit of comparing my life to those of rich Fountain Valley kids. I mean, what’s the point and who cares? I’m proud of how far Mom and I have come and the best part is, we have nobody to thank for it but ourselves. It’s just that when the whole world is supposed to “shelter at home,” it’s hard not to clock the differences in what that word can mean.

I dry my hands on a dish towel and then wiggle my pink-­socked toes to demonstrate my shoeless feet. “Who was that?”

“Just one of the two dozen clients who wants to know how the heck they’re going to get their clothes now that everyone’s supposed to stay put.” She pushes bangs off her forehead and collapses into the kitchen chair that our cat, Sir Scratchmo, uses to sharpen his claws. Mom worked at Ricky’s Cleaners for eighteen months before Ricky announced he was going to retire and planned to close the place. We had six months to scrape together savings and bank loans and googlehow to run a cleaning business, but Mom said we wouldn’t get an opportunity like this again to have something that’s ours. I don’t think stains are exactly a passion of my mother’s, but people will always need their clothes cleaned, and we Mauros are practical like that. “You know they say that we should be stocking up on cash in all of this too,” she says.

“Who is ‘they’?”

She takes a long sip from a glass of water. “I saw an article on Facebook.”

“Mom, what have we talked about when it comes to Facebook articles?”

She waves me away. “Mm. Was it wild out there?”

“You know Walking Dead? Well, like the entire first season of that, but with better hygiene.” I do the bored stare into the open fridge, letting the artificial air cool my cheeks. “What’s for dinner?’

“Sorry, M ’n’ M, you’ll have to fend for yourself. I’ve got more calls to make.”

Coincidentally, Fend for Yourself would also be the title of the sitcom version of my life. Sometimes I think the majority of my childhood was one long afternoon sitting way too close to the TV and eating boxed mac ’n’ cheese. Not that I’m complaining. Rae Mauro works harder than anyone I know, and for as long as I can remember it’s been just the two of us, which means often it’s just me.

I dump two pepperoni Hot Pockets on a plate and shove them in the microwave. Three minutes later, dinner is served, and I tiptoe past Mom, who’s deep into strategizing her customers’ wardrobe deliveries using our coffee table like it’s a Risk board. Honestly, I don’t even understand why anyone needs their dry-­cleaned clothes during a lockdown except that I guess cashmere is pretty soft, if you can swing it.

I tuck myself beneath a mound of blankets and balance the plate on my lap before searching the covers on my bed for the remote control. Sir Scratchmo judges me from his perch on top of my dresser, flicking his scruffy tail. Sometimes Scratchmo watches me with such disdain that I think he sticks around only on the off chance I might choke on a pizza roll and he’ll get to feast on my carcass.

I check my delivery app—­sixty-­two dollars in tips today. Not too shabby. I mentally tally the Berkeley fund. I think even my mother’s starting to believe it might happen. A four-­year business degree from one of the best colleges in California. Two years ago, I would’ve said I’m destined to be a community college kid, at least for the first two years, because universities are crazy expensive—­like, fifteenthousand dollars a year expensive. But think what kind of boss business ladies Mom and I could be with a school like that on my résumé.

Exactly.

If you work hard, if you make sacrifices, if you stick to the plan, you’ll get ahead. Mom and I are like two horses in the Kentucky Derby. For most of the race, we’ve just been out here trying not to get trampled in the pack, but then slowly, slowly, inch by inch, we pushed up, and we pressed and pressed even when we were bone-­tired, even until just recently, and we nosed ahead enough to get our photo finish. And as my mom likes to say, the finish line is really just the beginning.

The cheese from the Hot Pocket still manages to burn the roof of my mouth, so I have to use my hand as a fan while my jaw hangs wide open, like no wonder I’m single. I watch one episode ofHannibal and then half of another, take my plate to the sink and wash it while my mom is still talking with great passion about camel hair and mothproofing on the phone. Outside is the usual racket of the dumpster lid opening and closing and cars locking, the guy next door playing his bass too loud, and footsteps from the apartment above ours.

I belly flop back onto my bed and stare at my Mickey Mouse alarm clock—­eight thirty. For the record, lots of things sound like a good idea when you’re really, really bored, and almost none of them can be considered your fault. Like eating an entire package of Oreos or starting a blog or attempting to dye your hair blond. Or in this case, unlocking your phone and finding that you forgot to click “delivered” on your last order of the day and so you still have access to a certain pre-­pre-­pre-­law-­slash-­L.L.Bean-­model-­wannabe’s phone number.

Maxine M.: So you could have told me that you were the customer I was shopping for earlier.

CUSTOMER: And RUIN the element of surprise?

Maxine M.: Wait, this *is* the guy from the grocery store, right?

CUSTOMER: Jonah Stephens, the one and only.

Maxine M.: . . . 

Maxine M.: Yeah ran a quick fact check on that and I just found like 13 of you on Facebook alone so . . . 

CUSTOMER: Did you friend me?

Maxine M.: No

CUSTOMER: Why not? You were right there!

Maxine M.: Because . . . we’re not friends?

CUSTOMER: Details

Maxine M.: Yeah you’re not big on those I seem to recall

CUSTOMER: OK OK not friends got it.

CUSTOMER: Do you think that’s permanent?

Maxine M.: Nothing is permanent Jonah. Time is ephemeral. The ice caps are melting and Criminal Minds is canceled and Prince Harry moved to America so hey anything is possible DREAM BIG

CUSTOMER: says the girl to the boy with a predisposition for existential crises

Maxine M.: says the boy to the girl with a susceptibility to ennui

CUSTOMER: ennui. Fancy.

Maxine M.: This is weird, by the way.

CUSTOMER: Which part?

Maxine M.: . . . texting you

CUSTOMER: Yeah, but the whole world is weird so it’s like a double negative. It cancels out.

Maxine M.: That logic is airtight.

CUSTOMER: Waiting for an emoji. I can’t tell if you’re being sarcastic.

Maxine M.: Oh I don’t believe in emojis.

CUSTOMER: They aren’t Santa Claus, Max. Emojis exist. They are a reality. Like climate change.

Maxine M.: What I mean is that I’ve taken a principled stance against emojis. Like if there were enamel pins that could support the fight against emojis, I would have five pinned to my jean jacket because enamel pins, unlike emojis, I freaking love.

CUSTOMER: OK, wow, a lot to unpack here. So did you have a traumatic formative experience with an emoji? Is this like a scary clown type thing? Max, are you afraid of emojis?

Maxine M.: I’d rather not say.

CUSTOMER: This is a safe space. I can recommend resources. Start a support group.

Maxine M.: . . . 

Maxine M.: . . . 

Maxine M.: OK, fine.

Maxine M.: I was dumped via emojis.

CUSTOMER: Serious?

Maxine M.: Dead.

CUSTOMER: It’s settled then. I’m never using emojis again. Out of solidarity to those whom emojis have harmed.

Maxine M.: Thanks.

Maxine M.: Moving on. So . . . are you, you know, worried?

CUSTOMER: Max, worry is my permanent state. I worry about the soccer goal I missed at an away game 3 years ago. I worry about my SAT score. I worry about that one time my voice cracked when I raised my hand in AP Euro. So yeah I guess you could say I’m worried

Maxine M.: Not really what I meant. But anyway. I can’t keep my eyes open.

CUSTOMER: That’s lucky. I can never get mine to shut.

CUSTOMER: Hey, do you mind if I save your number?

Maxine M.: Yes.

CUSTOMER: OK . . . 

Maxine M.: I mean no!

Maxine M.: I mean I don’t mind.

Maxine M.: Good night Jonah Stephens

CUSTOMER: Good night

Maxine M.: zzzzzzzzzzz

I wake to the sound of my mother’s voice talking loudly into the phone. My Mickey Mouse alarm clock reads 6:00 a.m. and I roll face-­first into my pillow. Sir Scratchmo jumps onto my back and begins kneading it, sneezing twice like he’s allergic to me.

My best friend, Dannie, had strong-­armed me into a joint New Year’s resolution to start mornings off with “mindful meditation!” and “gratitude journals!”—­in my defense, I’d been three glasses of sparkling cider deep—­and now the first thing I think when I peel open my eyelids each morning is: How . . . dare . . . you, Dannie. Which, when I told her, she somehow took as a compliment. Like:Thinking of you too, XOXO!

My sleeping laptop trills from the corner of the bed where I fell asleep with it half ­open. It trills again. Relentless. Sir Scratchmo gets the boot and I wriggle sideways to reach my keyboard, jostling the screen to life.

“Hiya.” My friend Imani’s face pops up the moment I click on the Google video chat. The third side of the Max-­Dannie-­Imani triangle. Imani and I know each other from way back when we started at the same day care down the road. Then we met Dannie when Mom and I lived at the Crescent Moon Complex circa fourth grade. There was a community pool. Times were simpler.

Imani has a glowing sheen of sweat on her dark brown skin. She’s wearing a sports bra and sipping from a green smoothie. “I had to finish my Zumba video before Sweets starts watching theToday Show, and I knew you had to work, so.” She shrugs like this should be a perfectly good reason to contact someone before sunrise.

I grunt, my chin still smashed into the comforter.

“Oh grouchy Max. You know I love grouchy Max. Not as much as hyper Max but definitely more than in-­her-­feelings Max.” She uses her hands to weigh the options. “You’re just so cute when you snarl. Grrr. Yeah, like that.”

I pull a blanket over my head.

“Okay, so I came up with a whole quarantine to-­do list and I want to run it by you to see what you think.”

“Already?” I peek out from underneath the blanket.

“Yeah. It’s been like two days. Get with the program.” On-­screen, Imani flourishes a notebook. “First, learn to knit. Second, Marie Kondo my whole closet. I want to spark major joy over here. Third, train for a marathon, but not if I’ve gotta wear a mask, shoot, I didn’t think of that, and fourth—­I’m struggling with a fourth.”

“Read War and Peace.”

“I guess I could, but—­”

“Oh my god, I was kidding. I think one through three will keep you plenty busy. It’s not like this will go on for an eternity.”

“I just hate the idea of having nothing to show for this time, you know?”

“Really? Because my only goal is survival.”

“You’re working. That’s so important.” The Athleta store where Imani has a weekend job had announced its closure two days ago. “Speaking of which, could you pretty-­please snag some Aleve and fiber gummies for my grandparents?” Imani and her parents have been living with Sweets and Big Paw since two Christmases ago. It’s a long story with a mostly happy ending, but she can’t get away with anything around Sweets, and her apartment’s so crowded that when she comes over here, she’s just excited to get fifteen minutes alone in the bathroom. “Oh and Dannie needs some packs of frozen fruit. She’s scared she’s going to get scurvy by the end of this. I think that’s the thing people get on ships.”

“Done and done.” Technically, I’m not supposed to do any personal shopping while on shift, but who am I kidding? “I better get a move on. You know what they say: Early bird gets the good canned soup.”

“Godspeed. And maybe run a comb through that hair? There’s enough fear in the world right now without you scaring the good citizens of Fountain Valley too.”

I log off and tug at the blinds cord before prying open my sticky window. Sunlight is just starting to seep into the sky and palm fronds rustle in the breeze. On the best days, I can smell the ocean right from my room. Today is one of those days. I poke my head out and take a deep whiff. There’s salt in the air. A skateboarder rolls down the middle of the quiet street below, the low hum of his wheels on asphalt close enough to hear.

Reluctantly, I slide off the mattress and spend the next twenty minutes trying to become human. By the time I’ve washed my hair and brushed my teeth and rubbed lotion into my face, I’m at least not snarling anymore. Openly.

I pour myself a cup of coffee from the half-­full pot waiting for me and clutch a mug with both hands, sipping slowly. “Did you sleep?” I ask Mom. My dad left when I was four years old, which, no matter what anybody says, is late enough for me to remember but apparently easy enough for him to forget, because after he took me to Disneyland that one time when I was six, I never heard from him again. The day after Disney, Mom took me to sit by the ocean and said, “See how big the ocean is? That’s how much I love you, which is plenty.” She had a point.

“A couple hours,” she says. “Early shift today?”

“The world is ending. The people need their shaved Brussels sprouts.”

“Be smart out there. You hear me?” She pushes a granola bar into my hand with the same gravity with which she might hand over a loaded weapon, as thoughgranola might protect me. This is the part where I’m supposed to roll my eyes, but even though this might not sound “cool,” I actually like when my mom goes all mama bear on me. It makes me feel lucky. Maybe not a thing you think to appreciate unless you came close, like we did, to losing everything, even each other.

“I will. Text me if you need anything while I’m out, okay?”

Something triggers: Text. Last night. That guy from the grocery store.

That guy who has a name.

Jonah.

Oh right. So, that happened.

And it wasn’t terrible.

I grab for my phone and see that there’s a new message on-­screen, sent at 2:01 a.m.All the better to ignore me by followed by a link to Spotify. My mouth does a little twist.

“Don’t forget these.”

I look up. Mom forks over a plastic bag. In it, hand sanitizer and the Clorox wipes I’d conned Jonah out of. At the door, I push my feet into my worn-­out shoes and lace them. I slide on latex gloves. I swipe hair out of my eyes. I put in my AirPods. I hit play on the first song. Listen. Grin. Type.

Oh . . . so you’re *that* guy?

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Additional information

Dimensions	0.8800 × 5.5000 × 8.2500 in
Imprint	Dial Books
ISBN-13	09780593326145
ISBN-10	0593326148
Author	Chandler Baker, Wesley King
Audience	Teenage
BISAC	YAF023010, YAF058030
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