Agnostic

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“Vital” –The New York Times Book Review

“Provocative…[Hazleton] paddles the river of doubt with energy and exuberance.” –The Seattle Times

A widely admired writer on religion celebrates agnosticism as the most vibrant, engaging—and ultimately the most honest—stance toward the mysteries of existence.

One in four Americans reject any affiliation with organized religion, and nearly half of those under thirty describe themselves as “spiritual but not religious.” But as the airwaves resound with the haranguing of preachers and pundits, who speaks for the millions who find no joy in whittling the wonder of existence to a simple yes/no choice?

Lesley Hazleton does. In this provocative, brilliant book, she gives voice to the case for agnosticism, breaks it free of its stereotypes as watered-down atheism or amorphous “seeking,” and celebrates it as a reasoned, revealing, and sustaining stance toward life. Stepping over the lines imposed by rigid conviction, she draws on philosophy, theology, psychology, science, and more to explore, with curiosity and passion, the vital role of mystery in a deceptively information-rich world; to ask what we mean by the search for meaning; to invoke the humbling yet elating perspective of infinity; to challenge received ideas about death; and to reconsider what “the soul” might be. Inspired and inspiring, Agnostic recasts the question of belief not as a problem to be solved but as an invitation to an ongoing, open-ended adventure of the mind.Praise for Agnostic:

“In Hazleton’s vital, mischievous new book, the term [agnostic] represents a positive orientation towards life all its own, one that embraces both science and mystery, and values the immediate joys of life…In each of her wide-ranging reflections….she remains intimately grounded and engaged in our human, day-to-day life.” —New York Times Book Review

“A beautiful, inquisitive, energetic 200-page tribute to uncertainty… that’s about 50 times as charming as anything Sam Harris has ever written and 500 times more inspiring than any of Joel Osteen’s books…You might give yourself windburn turning these pages.” —Seattle Review of Books

“Provocative…[Hazleton] paddles the river of doubt with energy and exuberance.” —Seattle Times

“Hazleton makes a compelling case for why agnosticism matters, and sets out a comprehensive and though-provoking definition of what it means. It’s a powerful and deeply humanistic argument, told deftly through these pages.” –Vol. 1 Brooklyn

“The title of Hazleton’s “manifesto” on agnosticism is not a contradiction: she imbues the middle ground between belief and non-belief with spirit by showing that agnosticism itself is a disposition in favor of intellectual and emotional dexterity. A book that should be read as much by the believer (the religious or atheist) as anyone else.” — Flavorwire, “A Must Read”

“A heady romp through the mind of an intellectual adventurer who relishes curiosity and questioning over the dubious comforts of dogma and certainty.” —Seattle Met

 “To be agnostic is not to sidestep the question of belief, for Hazleton, or to commit to a wishy-washy moral framework. It is instead to have enough backbone to stand firm in the liminality of uncertainty. She wants readers to give agnosticism a fair shake, and many will be convinced by her appealing voice and accessible prose.” —Publisher’s Weekly (starred)

“Here, with clever elucidation, are artful essays that celebrate the wonder of the unknown… Hazleton does not deny possibilities; she denies only assured and implacable dogma.” —Kirkus Reviews

“Personably persuasive … Informed by science, philosophy, literature, history, travel, hiking, and more, Hazleton’s manifesto makes the suspension of conviction as attractive as any theist or atheist testament.” —Booklist

“At last, a liberating antidote to the either/or thinking of the atheist/believer debate.  Hazleton makes an impassioned and persuasive case for the insights – and joys – to be gained from a stance of not-knowing.”
–Reza Aslan, author of Zealot and No God but God
 
“It’s a fraught enterprise to take on the big questions–God, meaning, mortality, existence–but Hazleton has done it here with remarkable aplomb, and in a singular voice devoid of pretension.  Her manifesto is, for me, a celebration–a welcome infusion of joy in an arena preponderantly inhabited by dogmatists.” –David Guterson, author of Snow Falling on Cedars
 
“As a rabbi whose search for religious meaning is constantly renewed by doubt, I loved Lesley Hazelton’s book.  It is vibrant, challenging, extremely interesting, funny and profound.  It is wise in its embrace of paradox,  mystery and science.”
–Rabbi Rachel Cowan, Former Director of the Institute for Jewish Spirituality

Praise for The First Muslim:

“The First Muslim succeeds. It makes its subject vivid and immediate.” —Hari Kunzru, The New York Times Book Review

“Richly detailed and beautifully written . . . [Hazleton] is able to do with words what is almost never attempted in pictures . . .  indispensable.” —The Seattle Times

“Like her subject, Hazleton brilliantly navigates ‘the vast and often terrifying arena in which politics and religion intersect,’ revealing the deep humanity of faith.” —More

“The First Muslim finds the human in the sacred.” —The StrangerLesley Hazleton is an award-winning writer whose work focuses on the intersection of religion, history, and politics. She reported on the Middle East from Jerusalem for more than a dozen years, and has written for Time, The New York Times, The New York Review of Books, Harper’s, The Nation, and The New Republic, among others. Her book After the Prophet was a finalist for a PEN Center USA Literary Award, and she is the recipient of The Stranger’s Genius in Literature Award. Hazleton lives in Seattle.One

Beyond

Either/Or

There are some four hundred houseboats in Seattle. Many, like mine, are little more than shacks on rafts, but this may be the only one with a mezuzah at its entrance. If I were religious, the small cylindrical amulet would hold a miniature scroll inscribed with the Shema, the Jewish equivalent of the Lord’s Prayer or the Islamic Shahada. But mine doesn’t, partly because the scroll kept falling out when I put the mezuzah up on the doorpost, and partly because I don’t believe a word of the prayer anyway. I’m not sure what happened to it. I may have thrown it out in a tough-minded moment, or it may be squirreled away at the bottom of a drawer somewhere. No matter. Most of the time I don’t even notice the mezuzah, and neither does anyone else. But I know it’s there, and that does matter.

Yet why should it? I am firmly agnostic, and haven’t been to a synagogue service in years. Decades, in fact. So is the mezuzah an empty sentimental gesture on my part, or does the word hypocrisy apply? Could I be in denial: a closet theist, or a more deeply closeted atheist? Or am I just a timid fence-sitter, a spineless creature trying to have it both ways, afraid to commit herself one way or the other?

And there’s the problem-right there in that phrase “one way or the other.” It sees the world in binary terms: yes or no, this side or that. It insists that I can be either agnostic or Jewish but not both, even though both are integral parts of this multi-faceted life that is mine, as integral as being a writer, a psychologist, a feminist, all the many aspects of this particular person I am. All are part of the way I experience the world, and myself in it. Take any one of these aspects away, and I’d be someone else.

To be agnostic is to love this kind of paradox. Not to skirt it, nor merely to tolerate it, but to actively revel in it. The agnostic stance defies artificial straight lines such as that drawn between belief and unbelief, and shakes off the insistence that it come down on one side or the other. It is free-spirited, thoughtful, and independent-minded-not at all the wishy-washy I-don’t-knowness that atheists often accuse it of being. In fact the mocking tone of such accusations reveals the limitations of dogmatic atheism. There’s a bullying aspect to it, a kind of schoolyard taunting of agnostics as “lacking the courage of their convictions”-a phrase that raises the question of what exactly conviction has to do with courage. It’s easy to forget that the inability to muster the honesty of the three words “I don’t know” only leads to a radical dishonesty. The least we have come to expect is that someone be able to bullshit their way out of not knowing something, which is why the first thing taught in media training (a term that always makes me think of obedience training for dogs) is how to evade a difficult question and maintain the tattered illusion of mastery.

I stand tall in my agnosticism, because the essence of it is not merely not-knowing, but something far more challenging and infinitely more intriguing: the magnificent oxymoron inherent in the concept of unknowability. This is the acknowledgment that not everything may be knowable, and that not all questions have definitive answers-certainly not ones as crudely put as the existence or non-existence of God. At its best, however, agnosticism goes further: it takes a spirited delight in not knowing. And this delight is no boorish disdain for knowledge and intellect. Rather, it’s a recognition that we need room for mystery, for the imagination, for things sensed but not proven, intuited but not defined-room in which to explore and entertain possibilities instead of heading straight for a safe seat at one end or the other of a falsely created spectrum.

What’s been missing is a strong, sophisticated agnosticism that does not simply avoid thinking about the issues, nor sit back with a helpless shrug, but actively explores the paradoxes and possibilities inherent in the vast and varied universe of faith-belief-meaning-mystery-existence. That’s my purpose here. I want to explore unanswerable questions with an open mind instead of approaching them with dismissive derision or with the solemn piety of timid steps and bowed head-to get beyond old, worn-out categories and establish an agnostic stance of intellectual and emotional integrity, fully engaged with this strange yet absorbing business of existence in the world.

I have been agnostic for almost as long as I can remember. The only Jew in an English convent school, I grew up with competing claims on what was presumably my soul, reciting one grace-before-meals in the convent and another at home, and wishing I had to do neither. The school chapel was redolent with the smell of stale incense, the local Orthodox synagogue with the equally stale scent of Chanel No. 5 on the fox stole of my motherÕs neighbor in the womenÕs balcony, where IÕd pass the time by trying to outstare its beady eye. Home offered the comfort of chopped liver, school the temptation of pork-and the disappointment when, half-convinced that the infamous bolt from the blue would strike, I finally dared take a bite, only to find that it tasted like boiled chicken. How could something forbidden be so bland?

Two major religions seemed to be battling for possession of me, making me wonder how it could make any difference what one stoop-shouldered adolescent believed. Yet while logic seemed to dictate that I would walk away from all things remotely religious as soon as I emerged from childhood, that didn’t happen. Instead, I compounded my involvement by going to Jerusalem for two weeks and staying for thirteen years. I stayed at first because I was twenty and in love with a classically wrong guy, and then because by the time I’d come to my senses and fallen out of love, I’d already told my university in England to give my research grant to someone else. This was, by any rational measure, a terrible decision, and I have never regretted it.

It was still possible then for a political innocent to romanticize Jerusalem. Mysticism seemed to shimmer in the air. Jewish and Christian and Muslim legends piled on top of one another, laying claim to the same limestone hills and making it easy to imagine that this provincial city had a cosmopolitan soul. I treasured the famous medieval map showing a three-petaled universe with Jerusalem at its hub, and honed my skills in the Center of the World pool hall hidden deep in the alleys of the Old City, not yet aware that thinking of yourself as the center of the world might itself be a sure sign of provincialism. But where the sacred and the profane once seemed to rub shoulders with entrancing ease, they became increasingly indistinguishable. Jerusalem brought me into the vast and volatile arena in which politics and religion intersect, and as I explored that arena as both a psychologist and a journalist, what I’d thought of as a mysteriously God-haunted city became a city with too much God and not enough humanity.

Three wars later, I moved to Manhattan and then, with the offer of the houseboat, to Seattle. And yet Jerusalem came with me. As the millennium turned, I’d rise every morning to cormorants diving in the mist over Lake Union and sit down at my desk to the deserts of the Middle East, half the world and half of history away. I wrote about Mary in Galilee, Elijah in Gilead, Muhammad in Mecca, and through them, traced the roots of the Big Three monotheisms in the ancient and ongoing search for political and social justice. And I began to blog as an “accidental theologist,” describing my posts as “an agnostic eye on religion, politics, and existence,” and hoping thus to cover a multitude of sins.

Yet even as I used the word religion, something in me shrank from it, not least because it is so bound up in its origins: the Latin religari, to be tied down or constricted. It was no accident that agnostics, unconfined by imposed definitions, were originally called free-thinkers. Religion seemed an insufficient shorthand for the vast matrix of meaning and experience that it claims to address-a single lens through which to view the multiple facets of what philosopher-psychologist William James called “the varieties of religious experience.”

I felt as though I were forging my own exploration of those varieties when I was asked to speak at seemingly unlikely forums for an agnostic: in churches, mosques, and synagogues. “What am I doing here?” I’d think as I stepped in front of the altar. “How on earth did this happen?” Yet people nodded in recognition as I talked about the dismal reduction of mystery to a yes-or-no proposition. They acknowledged a disconnect between what they sensed on the one hand and the demand for belief on the other. Longing for something more than the stark duality of belief/unbelief, they were increasingly impatient with the theist-atheist debate that had produced so much hot air over the previous decade or so. Those involved in that debate seemed increasingly trapped in their own neatly defined binary terms: either/or, true or false. Working with an outdated grab-bag of assertions, they’d reduced complexity to a single dimension, with the result that the entire issue had become peculiarly overdetermined, in much the same way, say, that New Year’s Eve is overdetermined-a single evening too often doomed to disappointment by the sheer weight of expectation vested in it.

I wanted to get beyond the stale tropes of that debate, to rise above its simplistic dichotomies and establish room to breathe, to dance with ideas instead of trying to confine them into conceptual straitjackets. And in this, I was far from alone.

The most respected polls on faith and belief are run by the Pew Forum on Religion and Public Life, which has been taking the pulse of both the American and the international soul, as it were, since 2001. In brief, which is how the Pew results are usually reported, it looks as though we are stuck in a religious time warp. As defined in conventional terms, the United States is apparently as deeply religious a country as when it was founded. Just over two-thirds of Americans say they believe in God. When the question is expanded to ÒGod or a higher power,Ó as in the competing Gallup Poll, that figure rises to 77 percent. And if America seems God-obsessed, Europe appears equally so, with 70 percent of respondents avowing belief.

Nobody seems to ask what is meant by such statements, however. Consider: A stranger calls you on the phone, says she’s conducting a survey, and asks if you believe in God. You can answer only yes or no, since don’t-knows don’t count. And consider too that if you simply hang up, as you’re likely to do if you consider this an absurdly simplistic question, you don’t count either. So let’s assume for the sake of argument that the question intrigues you enough to stay on the line. Yet you may not be quite sure. On the one hand, you don’t think of yourself as a believer, not in the usual sense of the word, which defines you as religious. On the other, while you may half-admit this to yourself, saying so out loud to a complete stranger over the phone is something else. Will you be struck by that bolt from the blue if you come out and say no? Is it really any surprise that a certain portion of those still on the line will play it safe and say yes?

There’s a similar vagueness when respondents are asked about their religious affiliation. What exactly does that mean? Am I affiliated or unaffiliated-or do I count twice, once as a Jew and once as an agnostic? I’m not the only one in such an affiliative quandary. It turns out that more than 70 percent of people in England identify as Christian, but since less than 10 percent go to church with any regularity, this apparently means only that they’re not Jewish, Muslim, Hindu, Buddhist, or any other readily available religious category. A diminishing few may pop in for a nostalgic Midnight Mass on Christmas Eve, or to light a candle for somebody who’s died, but that’s about it. Does simply having a Christmas tree define you as Christian, then? Or exclaiming “Jesus!” in exasperation (which would make me a Christian)? Or crossing your fingers in superstitious acknowledgment of the cross on Calvary?

The only thing that seems clear from the polls is that there is a lot of outmoded thinking about religion. Indeed the real question might be if there’s any substantial meaning to a term so broad that it covers everything from militant fundamentalism to cultural tradition to an undefined sense of spirituality. Certainly that is the question asked implicitly by those who stubbornly resist categorization and insist on answering “nothing in particular” when asked what religion they are.

One in four Americans now rejects the traditional pollster categories, and this group trends young. More than a third of those under thirty say they are unaffiliated-a proportion that increases with each new poll, giving rise to much gray-bearded concern about millennials losing their way. “Moral compasses” are often invoked, as though religion always points north. It doesn’t seem to have occurred to the graybeards that religion and morality are not synonymous-or that ruthless minds can turn them into opposites. Nor does it occur to them that younger people may be deliberately looking in a different direction, and doing so in such numbers that they’ve forced the pollsters to include a new category, “spiritual but not religious.” Close to 40 percent of younger Americans now describe themselves this way, confounding conservatives hewing to obey-God’s-law legalism.

“Spiritual but not religious” is an expression of a very human yearning for an opening of mind and heart-a sense of soul and spirit that enhances day-to-day experience instead of tamping it down and channeling it into the narrow confines of stick-and-carrot orthodoxy. It’s a rejection of traditional tenets and pieties, of doctrine and dogma and judgment. It resists the usual attempts to pigeonhole, saying, “Spare me your labels.” It is, at heart, agnostic.

Like so many others, I am tired of stale assumptions-of the demand that I choose sides as though this were some sort of schoolyard game, and of others trying to convince me. In fact I am tired of conviction, and of the preaching and scolding of those who claim a comfortable perch from which to preen their righteous feathers, whether religious or irreligious. Conviction is not only to be convinced; itÕs also to be convicted, like a prisoner in his cell. It is to close oneÕs mind, to nail oneself down beyond a shadow of doubt-a turn of phrase that sees doubt as a threat, some darkness lurking in your peripheral vision like an intruder to be vanquished instead of as a partner to curiosity and a prerequisite to real thought.US

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Dimensions	0.5300 × 5.0900 × 8.0100 in
Imprint	Riverhead Books
ISBN-13	09781594634147
ISBN-10	1594634149
Author	Lesley Hazleton
Audience	General / adult
BISAC	BIO018000, REL102000
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